One day I made a decision that would change my life,

For some reason I decided to become a sailors wife.

I knew I loved him but I wasn't sure why,

Until the day he made me cry.

I wasn't sure if it was pride or tears of sadness,

But I was sure that it would be his touch I'd miss.

On this day he softly said, "I have to go,"

Over seas for my family, "this burden I must tow."

"I have to go on this journey without you and the kids,"

"To make sure at night you can close your eyelids."

"Every one is fighting, our country is at war,"

"And for my country's safety, the call of duty I can't ignore."

He said, "yes," "baby I know I will have to be away from home for a while,"

Then he whispered, "Please don't cry, try to be strong and wear a smile,"

"You have to be strong for you and the kids sake,"

"Please don't cry now for my heart you will break."

"I have to go aboard my ship now and start my travel,"

All the while praying our family doesn't unravel.

He turned and he kissed me with our tears streaming down,

I could feel my heart beat fast and my head started to pound.

I wanted to hold on, I wanted to scream, I wanted to run,

All I could think was my life was coming undone.

"I will write to you, he said, on our first anniversary,"

"And you’ll know how much I love and miss you even though I’m out at sea."

"I may not get home by the time the birthdays roll around for you and our little ones,"

"But please let them know that daddy misses everyone tons and tons."

He let me go and turned to walk away from our embrace,

And I won't ever forget the look on his face,

The first time I think I ever truly saw fear in his eyes,

And how many nights he relives our goodbyes.

How many times I said please don't go,

All the things I didn't get to let him know.

If he could hear me now I know what I would say.......

I would tell him, "Jason Please!" I want you to stay,"

"I want you to stay! Let someone else fight this war,"

But that wouldn't be fair to the ones who lost loved ones before.

I would tell him, "Jason, I am so proud of you,"

And that I don't know if I could do what you do.

I would tell him, "Jason I love you heart and soul,"

Even though this deployment has taken its toll.

If he could hear me I would scream out his name,

Just to know that this war isn't in vain.

I would tell him I know the Navy is his dream,

And I know what living that to him must mean.

I would tell him I love him and I miss him so much,

And I can’t wait for him to come home so I can feel his touch.

I would tell him I love him and I miss him like mad,

And that the kids can’t wait to see their dad.

I would tell him I love him and I miss him a heap,

And that I will meet him in my dreams tonight when I sleep.

I love you Jason,

Marcy